My Mother's Day
Dear Mom, this will be a different mother’s day for me, and not because I won’t plant my garden or hang out at some hip restaurant with my family. It will be different because I will not call you today to wish you a happy mother’s day. This is a first for me and it is a bit strange. I won’t even look for a gift last minute as I usually do, or send flowers in a crunch because I am the worst planner for birthdays and other holidays. Every year I pledge that I will get my card or gift in the mail to arrive before the day but it just doesn’t happen. I am trying to put it out of my mind and plan to have the day to myself, be a bit selfish and self-centered, sleep late and not have to think about planning anything for the day. That sounds like a cool Mother’s day, giving me time to reflect on the many mothers day celebrations I have enjoyed over the years with you. This mother’s day will be the first of many without you. It has been two months now. I don’t know if I will mourn this day or call all my friends who have lost their mother and wish them a beautifully reflective day to cherish the good mother memories. Either way, I will not get to call and say Happy Mother's Day to you but I will forever remember those sweet moments on the phone letting you know how great a mom you were.